I know I've been gone a long while...but I have my reasons!
I'm hoping to get back on track and post more here and definitely make more videos on my YT channel.
Basically, I wasn't feeling the need to share here anymore. Besides, this whole blog started as a mean to promote my YT channel, which is what I want to be my ultimate income source from advertisements. I have shared really intimate things about myself only a few times, and even though it was very empowering, I was worried that people I know would get more info about me, and we all know knowledge is power. I just didn't want to be vulnerable.
But at this period in my life I feel much more safe to walk about in this world and I'm not afraid to share my true feelings, at least here on my blog. I even feel the need to, especially now, that I have deleted my Facebook account. on my account deletion, i plan to make a whole video talking about it, so wait for it :)
So In about two months, I'll be finishing my BA degree! well, at least I won't have to go to classes anymore, I'll then have to take exam and write papers for a long while :(
I can't believe it's gonna be all over soon! I mean, who knows where I'll be next year?
But then again, it's a wonderful opportunity to make changes and do different things! it's not a secret I was suffering every minute of these studies, and I have no intention whatsoever to work in something related to my field [east Asian studies]. I could look at it as a waste of time, but I choose to see it as something that I completed from start to end, overcoming a challenge, and a mean to enrich myself.
In the end, without my resolution to go to the university a few years ago, I don't know how I would have gotten out of the crisis I was in at the time. I made some great friends and learned a lot about myself.
Anyhow, I have a deadline to all the papers, as i'm going to trek the Israel Trail in September :)
Surprised? Me too. It all started on the day I deleted my facebook and broke up with my ex boyfriend.
I was walking on the way to class, and saw a discounted book fare on the way. You know those books who just *call out* to you? this one was Wild by Cheryl Strayed. It's a story about a woman who decided to hike the Pacific Crest Trail, after getting a divorce and having her life all messed up.
The funny thing is, two days before I got the book, I was walking on a trail [not something I EVER do!] quite close to my parents house, that the Israel Trail was going next to. I didn't pay much attention to it, but I noticed it has a different color. 9 years before that, I heard about the trail for the first time when I was in sorting for the army [I didn't enlist in the end]. a vegan friend there told me she knows someone who's doing it, and I remember thinking "that's crazy! and awesome! but absolutely not for me". but for those of you who know about my Freud crush, know that I truly believe our subconscious is dynamic, and things that go dwell there, don't just sit idle, and they influence us in different ways. So while reading the book, I was like "omg. I'm going to a journey on the Israel national trail".
But the trail is only two months, three tops! what will I do later? I don't wanna go back to my ordinary boring life...heck, I don't even wanna live such a life! A life where you get up in the morning, go to a job you don't like so you could buy things you don't need. Fuck it! I've been in a minimalism journey for almost a year now! I don't need to work to but things cause I don't need things! I don't want to have a limitless amount of useless objects that ground me to a certain place and deny me my movement freedom! I mean after all, experiences are worth more than objects right?
So I don't know how, this got me thinking I need to go travel the world.
That's settled. I'll be off to Thailand in November :)
I'll be posting more in my blog so be sure to check it out! I even sorted out my RSS feed, so you can sub and get notified whenever I have something new up.
Peace
Henya
